"Female Problems"

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 So, this part may be hard for some to read and I am sorry.

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I have had "female problems" since the beginning of my womanhood, seemingly authenticated by the ER DR that gave me my first internal at 16, and then proceeded to question me about whether I had ever been in a serious accident.

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I think it may have been the first time I was "on display," with several nurses coming in and looking IN ME to see the supposed anomaly, my completely backwards uterus.

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They asked me about being in an accident, and to be honest I could only come up with one reason for trauma to my midsection: being whipped/beaten. They did not think that was the cause and kept digging about accidents, falls that required hospital visits, etc.

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It was not until years later that a child molester admitted "doing things to me" when we shared a bedroom. After some sleuth work, I found out from my parents that I was only 5 when we shared a room. 

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Because I had several sexual offenders, I have fragments of flashbacks and suddenly I realized the ONE person I blamed for all of them, wasn't the sole perpetrator.

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For the record, I will always wonder if his confession was really just for his own good, because he was in AA and making amends. Sometimes I wish I didn't know and had he not confessed, he would have been one less bad memory.

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So I actually believe that sex with children is an unknown factor in some of these bull-crap illnesses I have, like ENDOMETRIOSIS, internal scar tissue, and maybe even FIBROMYALGIA.

 

Click here to read my article, Incest and the Broken Uterus.

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