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Chronicle of an F*ed Up Body

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There are other injuries or oddities that have not been mentioned, that cause pain.

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I have slipped on ice TWICE and hit my back on a cement/wood) stair.

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I tripped when camping, coming out of the bathroom at a state park (the range of the light didn't show the slight ramp that was there for wheelchair access). As a result I used my hands and knees to stop my face from bouncing off the ground, and sprained both knees.

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There is one thing I can state with certainty: life will never be the same after injuring knees. It seems to be a pain that never goes away so be careful with those knees people!

 

The last time I had a laparoscopy, about a decade ago, the DR told me that I had so much scar tissue on the inside of my belly button from previous procedures, that they could no longer go in through there. I BELIEVE this scar tissue is a big contributor to my pain that is, at this moment, keeping me from being able to exercise ;0(

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IN TURN, exercising helps me feel safe, or able to protect myself - and this is necessary for the PTSD to keep at bay. NOT being able to do the slight minimal I could formally do? Much more mentally stressful than you may imagine!

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To add to the midsection pain, I have what they are calling "chronic pancreatitis."

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To add to the midsection pain, I have too-large of a chest.

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To further add to the midsection pain, I broke 11 ribs in a car accident that almost took my life, in 2013. Click here to read about it.

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If you can imagine the body: the weight of my chest pushes against the muscle and gastrointestinal area which pushes down on the pancreas and belly button scar tissues, by way of the ribs. When I add a (necessary) bra to it?

24-7 uncomfortable pain.

 

All of the things I have said up until this point usually combine in some way to limit me in ways none of you would even imagine, and this is just physical.

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Forget about the fact that I relate to having a "dual consciousness" (click here) and as you would expect, someone living with the abuses, would be quite messed up in the head. I think it is the motivator behind all my crazy fiction writings. If you skipped by the "brain" section CLICK HERE to go back to it.

 

I have a bunch of weird wacky OTHER things that I want to note, hopefully for future researchers studying the types of abuse, etc, and the physiological outcome of those factors found in such households and/or anomalies that I do not yet understand.

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For example is the fact that I have O- blood and this is said to bring with it anomalies that can be googled and read about as it is becoming a conspiracy favorite (look up haplogroup X, or ancient blood).

 

I also have this weird bump in the roof of my mouth, that the DR had everyone come in and look at when they noticed it for the first time. It is called Torinus Platinous, giving me a skeletal anomaly to go with the blood anomaly.

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Could the skeletal anomaly give me the headaches I have long-suffered from, but keep to myself as the DR always just wanted to throw medicine at it instead of finding the cause? 

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"Spots" on bladder, liver, kidney, bowels.

Could my scar tissue be ripping, and leaving behind healed "spots" that have caused the DR's to tell me NO MORE aspirin... No more ibuprofin...

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My body is quite broken, as is my mind.

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Best thing to do?

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KEEP BUSY and use my lovely disassociative tendencies to push things right out of my mind.

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THIS IS WHY I NEED A JOB I CAN DEDICATE MYSELF TO, FROM HOME.

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